I really don't feel anything anymore, but the sorrow for the hurt that I caused you. I'm always so sorry and so sorrowful.

 Maybe we just felt sorry for each other. And it was only that. Like being sad when watching a sunset.

Hateful one

 I think you are quite a hateful guy

With your macho appearance 

And your blunt but washed out style 

Your fucking arrogance of entitlement 

The way you strut and sway so brute

Your scam of insecurities and shame

Just to attract women to your game

Your loud laugh of a dirty clown 

I see your manipulative smirk

Your distraught of a fake sorrow 

You think you're a radiant sunflower 

When you're just being a rude jerk 

You assume yourself as a wallflower 

And instead you're the life of a party

With your jokes and insulting trivia

What a little petty ego you trip on 

(yeah, you irritate me)

 You will never know what happened all those times and after, so you'll never understand. 

 Reality always explodes. 

Deep Cuts

 You turned my life into a big wound 

Managed to perpretrate major blows

Again and again leaving no more room

For any other good feelings to grow

I've been spending most of my time

Just trying to overcome each day

But whenever I feel that I survived 

You get to hit me without my say

I know I am also mainly to blame

Because I opened myself to everyone 

Thinking this time there was no game

And everyone was truly a friend 

And now that I have been hurt a ton

I realized I cannot heal totally 

Unless I'm able to do it vocally 

I was always a murdered dying sum

 there's always more to stories than what they're told

Awful

 You were so awful to me and to almost every woman. You destroyed much of my life. You're a devil in disguise. And as you smile to every other gal, I'm pitiful of them if they'll be your next targets to use and discard. 

You are rotten and psychopathic, you play with people's feelings, manipulate everyone, making yourself the victim, because "women are the crazy ones", and you make it in a way the even get to joke about them with others. You slander our names telling everyone we're to blame. I was warned by one of your best gal friends, out of the blue, didn't understand why then. I was just another unsuspicious fool that went down that same yours old sewer drain. 

Real Love

Only truth and vulnerability will lead you to real love.

Guilt

 "Guilt will destroy you" and it has been. Can't wait to die to get rid of everything they made me and also the guilt I feel, especially for having let been led to madness by another person.