Thursday 14 March 2024

Some people

 Some people won't give up on you, no matter what you do and some give up on you at the first problem. 

Sunday 10 March 2024

 dressing is so out of fashion 

Life isn't easy

 I can't remember a time when life was easy. Not even when I was a baby. I got beaten so hard and was forbidden to do everything and got very sick sometimes too.

And as I grew up it still remained the same bloody shit. All because of the people who made me so bad and so wrong things, since congenital problems to acquired. So poor, so mistreated, so poorly nurtured in every way.


 we burned through fire itself
just to get to the other side
both of us, ashes at flight
that before were cinder
in disguise 

Friday 8 March 2024

  'Just in case you ever foolishly forget; I'm never not thinking of you.' - Virginia Woolf

Sunday 25 February 2024

being sufficient

 no one gets to be sufficient for someone else, because they don't know what the other wants.

Friday 23 February 2024

 seeing you smile makes me feel that you know that we'll get to be together in the end

it really seems I waited a lifetime to finally be with you.

Tuesday 13 February 2024

Saturday 10 February 2024

 It's been some hard days on my mind, feeling like it's raining all the time, or about to explode with so much confusion in its abode.

In fact, it has been cold and rainy outside the window that I seldom open, I don't even know the scope of it being broken.
But through it all, on the background hidden, there's the glimpse of a small flame like from candle light and the warmth of a firebond, that whenever I risk to look better at it I feel it's like the incandescence of the sun burning through space itself.
If I'm ash, how can I burn; if I'm the blue-crow tattooed on my chest, how am I the phoenix?
I guess I'm just like the tired photograph of the night streetlights that we'll never see together.

(8th Feb 2021)