I wanna know who you are

Live inside your mind Know exactly what you disguise I wanna know who you are Sleep inside your dreams Cuddle bending knees Stay in silence hearing the breeze I wanna know who you are When you are courageous and brave I wanna know who you saved Hug till the time is far

 Until we meet again

I'm gonna watch the moon and the stars for us Savour the burst of blueberries And never let my lips rust Cause I don't care if he marries Doesn't matter, I trust One day we'll be our turn I'll try to not totally burn

 I guess that the fact that I'm dying gave me the only freedom I didn't really signed for.

 If you only knew how lucky you are, if you felt it, if you truly stopped to notice, how incredible it would be for you ❤️

 I am so happy that he has made it, he got to where I wanted. If he knew that everything, every little thing (even when I told about some of my ex-boyfriends) I said and done was for him to get exactly to where he is now as a person and everything he got to have, he would probably still not thank me just out of pride LOL but I am really happy that he made it and that he can have a healthy love now. :)

 I swear that I don't get it, how can you ever be the one, it simply doesn't exist, it's impossible, though it's impossible to deny.

Again and again, Nothingman

 "Once divided, nothing left to subtract..., some words once spoken can't be taken back"... 

I'm gonna hang in just a little bit more, but then I'm done. I always knew this would be the end for me this year. That's what the 2(0)22 meant. 

I wish I had had a better chance than what I had, but maybe it's really like I heard yesterday "there is no chance/luck, only karma".

No one will ever know for sure. That is funny a bit to think of now.

 I never meant to hurt anyone, not even myself. 
But the storm is bigger than anything
And spares no one in its passage.

Trust issues

Of all the people who abandoned me, even knowing how ill I am, you are the only ones that I miss because I trusted you.
After spending years without needing anyone or even feeling lonely, never felt it really, I started feeling it only because of you. 

It's me you wanted sleeping beside you

 Yes, I know what you feel, that I should be the one waking up beside you and that's why it's hard to hear my voice now even if you love hearing it. 

You'll spend your whole life with that feeling buried inside, that guilt, and you'll remember me from time to time, because there was no one like me to you and she is just too basic. But she is the one you chose ultimately, although you had no option. But then again, had you not really? 

We tell ourselves things are exactly as they should be, just for us not to bother. Yes, I think I did it too. It's a nice life you chose for yourself, isn't? It's at least all I can hope for you: for you to be happy and truly feel accomplished with the life you chose. 

Seen in perspective, some people get to have incredible lives. You had. You should be grateful. I didn't have and can't, but even so I'm so grateful when I think of the love I had and also that you gave to me. 

Years go by and all that's left is these memories that sometimes come again to remind us how we used to be.