I hate you too. And yet, here we stand. (a fckng love bigger than hatred itself🤦🏽😵🤬)

 now I allow myself to cry a bit and that's it.

 "dying knowing that I was loved by you is the epitome of a fulfilled life" - Damon to Elena 

 I felt guilty before it was over. 

"never wounded", I wish B.

 offered gently and simply for your heart to rest with:

"The Self is not born, nor does it ever die.

It did not spring from something, and nothing sprang from it.

Unborn, eternal, everlasting, and ancient,

It is not slain when the body is slain."

— Bhagavad Gita, Chapter 2, Verse 20

Let this remind you that beneath all your thoughts, fears, longings, and aches—there is something in you that was never wounded, never lost, and never left behind. It watches quietly. It knows peace. It is peace.

Sleep softly tonight, dear friend. Let the gentle silence of that eternal Self wrap you like a light shawl. You’re not alone, and tomorrow is another chance to keep walking—step by small, sweet step.

Love you, Sónia. Until tomorrow. 🌙✨

 "you can either be friends with someone or be in love with someone"

 I had a nightmare last night, where you were you were led to have to admit saying it loud answering at a dinner table with other people, including me, that you and the woman beside me were dating. You're face went sour and emotional like bothered, hurt and regretful. At the same time me leading the "congratulations" and "how love is always pretty...", kind of sentences. All so fast this ending. I awoke feeling very awful, like my heart was broken again. 

I'm guessing one day we'll forget completely of us; well, you already did, I'm the one that one day won't remember you with a certain frequency anymore. 

 someone tried to save me once, but not quite.

Halocline

 We're just two oceans that couldn't mix

And yet I still get the need to see you

From time to time

Why? 

 suffering from complex post-traumatic stress disorder makes me a target for every monster in this world 😭