the 100th post being:

I guess «Dream on, sucker!» is a really adequate sentence for me, but I'm hoping the person who said it to me didn't mean it that much.

What is that feeling?

What is that feeling, when you believe in something?
How do you describe it?
Is it like when you have a vivid dream
and then you wake up believing it was real?
Or is it more durable like an actual experience?

How does it feel exactly?
Does it hurt or does it shine inside you,
giving you some kind of eternal bliss?

My deficit for belief is rooted in my veins,
directly pumping to my heart,
poisoning it with disbelief.

So I'm hoping someone can tell me...
how does it feel when one believes.

«We're born alone and we die alone; all we have in between is suffering.
There's no greater sorrow than regret,
no greater power than love,
no greater gift than forgiveness»

( in the movie There be dragons, 2011)

Girl

«Have you seen the most beautiful girl in the world?
And if you did, was she crying?»

She smiled with her eyes and heart-shaped lips used to tell me the most sweet words.
Reminding me of someone I used to be, so happy when near her,
so drunk with the jasmine perfume she was wrapped on.

My eternal gift, the best of all, the girl,
the girl who made anything possible.

And now here I am, stuck in between memories of the days long gone,
trying to move on, but still feeling her scent on the air and her smile...
her smiling eyes that used to make my whole world brighter.

Will I ever see her again, the most beautiful girl in the world,
and if I do, will it last this time?

Happiness, I miss you

Happiness, I miss your tender touch
your full-bodied optimism
and the breeze that blows away all worries.

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To love them as our own
and then lose them
and later on realizing they were never ours
...
there's a kind of emptiness that lingers on.

You spend your whole life trying to fill it
with moments of happiness
as the strands of hair fall through your fingers
like the days that slip away from your hands.

All in all there are no reservations for happiness
for it's all in your mind
you can create the world you want to live
you should create it
because it's the only way you'll survive it.

Dreaming memories

You come crawling into my dreams
like an uninvited insect on a summer night
slightly buzzing, trying to be unnoticed.
Or are you really?

I've shun you off my day-life,
now that you seldom appear,
but you've managed to get in my dreams
making me get  face-to-face with the reality
that you are asleep, in my sub-conscience,
always spawning in me webs of memories.

The brown-yellowish still-photographs in the eyes' retina
swarm my dormant mind and the child, that same child,
comes to me, to my arms again, as it did in a distant past.

I thought I was cured, but memories can't be deleted
especially when they're carved in our chest
with the darkest ink of pain and sorrow.

Something will always feel broken inside my heart
but I'm still hoping I can make it better
by mending it with patches of happiness
and plentifulness that are yet to come...
I hope.

Still, I couldn't ever tell why hope lingers above all evilness,
still I couldn't ever tell why the memories still haunt me now and then.

James Blake - Limit to your love

There's a limit to your love 
Like a waterfall in slow motion 
Like a map with no ocean 
There's a limit to your love 
Your love, your love, your love 

There's a limit to you care 
So carelessly there, is it truth or dare 
There's a limit to your care 

There's a limit to your love 
Like a waterfall in slow motion 

Like a map with no ocean 
There's a limit to your love 
Your love, your love, your love 

There's a limit to you care 
So carelessly there, is it truth or dare 
There's a limit to your care
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/limit-to-your-love-lyrics-james-blake.html ]

Lost in this world by Richmond Fontaine

I fucked up again
I barely know where I am
I'm sorry I ain't called you in days
Maybe I'll never get over Wes and the hospital
I don't even have bus fare home

I'm just lost in this world
I'm lost in this world
Lost in this world

Maybe it's my skin
It's too thin
Maybe it's my heart that always caves in
But I fucked up again
Why, I barely know who I am
I'm sorry for all the things I haven't done

I'm just lost in this world
Lost in this world
Lost in this world

The Scientist by Coldplay

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' in tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' tails
Comin' back as we are

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.

I'm goin' back to the start.

Ohhhh oooooo
Ahhhh oooooo
Ohhhh oooooo
Ohhhh oooooo