Love of my life

 Lately I have been asking the heavens for you to tell me that you love me... and I guess you kind of did, but not exactly to me. 

Anyway, you already know I have and will always love you and be there for you taking care as I can. 

Love of my life, no matter.

 I can't tell you I fell in love with you...

 If you only knew how I suffered just to make it all so that you would be happy...

Player

 He's just playing with your heart. Don't forget it.

The state of the world

 It makes me cry when I think of the state of the world.

I've never been in love before - Frank Loesser - Chet Baker - Laufey

 I've never been in love before

Now all at once it's you
It's you for evermore
I've never been in love before
I thought my heart was safe
I thought I knew the score
But this is wine
It's all too strange and strong
I'm full of foolish song
And out my song must pour
So please forgive
This helpless haze I'm in
I've really never been
In love before

But this is wine
It's all too strange and strong
I'm full of foolish song
And out my song must pour
So please forgive
This helpless haze I'm in
I've really never been
In love before

 I can't live in a world like this and without having conditions to make anything better and useful. So if the adrenal cortex pill I mean to try goes sideways I just hope my death won't hurt me much. 

 But true love like this lasts forever.

 I don't want to love you anymore.

 I'm in love with you

And I want you

Entirely for myself