If I had known that I was in love with you, if I was aware of it back then, I would have stopped all contact with you and never had I continued on helping as I did either. I would have never gotten so close. 

 Would you ever kiss me with all your passion, my undying love? 

 I never liked you anyway. I just loved your every bit. 

 I just want that you are happy. I guess that's what love is. 

 You are my heartache and misery

Your careless whistle

To think I was once Bacall

Telling you "you just put your lips together and blow"

Why don't you come back to me 

I know how we are but I'm better now, I can withstand the anxiety and adrenaline and insecurity 

"come back to me", I'll wait for you

What is your heart's desire?

 To be able to see and listen to him upclose singing. That is my heart's true desire and what makes me happy. And I'll never have. 😪💔

What I've always deserved

... Is a love that is beautiful and peaceful, fulfilling and truthful. Someone who sees all of me and still loves me as I am, through all my changes going forward in the future. Not a psychopath of a man, but a decent, honest, sensible and sensitive, strong and courageous person. 

All I want is you

 I'm so sorry I couldn't go and run to you, to your loving arms, when all I want is to go and never be apart. 

I fell in love with him

 I fell in love with him 

And I struggled against it

So hard that it made me 

Destroy everything

Including myself

And love that he had for me

But I fell in love with him 

And it was in such a manner 

That I couldn't help it

But to miss him everyday

Though he was in mind 

All the time

He became the love of my life

It's the worst thing 

To love someone so much

And never be able to be near

To see him close 

And be held by him

To have this everlasting love

That cannot be fulfilled

To know that he doesn't love me

Like I love him all the way

Despite all the bad that hurts

I just wish I had a real chance

Choice

 I would choose you if you would let me. To have and to hold, to take care of each other and grow old. 

I would choose you if you would let me. To give all the love and attention, as you were as important as the air and the water for us to survive.

I would choose you if you would want me to. So that we could always lean on each other and Stay together forever. 

But you don't want me to and I couldn't ever.