If you don't prioritize human decency it's normal that you're also not a priority to me.

 It's undeniable: I love him so much I would risk it all for him, if he would only have me by his side. It's a love bigger than life itself and I just can't deny.

The addiction to sad songs

There’s actually some research that suggests when we become "addicted" to a song, especially a sad one, it’s because of how our brains process emotions and seek patterns. When we listen to a song repeatedly, our brain can release dopamine, a "feel-good" neurotransmitter. Even though the song might be sad, it can trigger a sense of comfort or familiarity, which is why we crave listening to it again.

In terms of emotional processing, listening to a sad song can help us process feelings we may not be consciously addressing. Our brain may use the song as a way to work through unresolved emotions, especially if we associate the song with a meaningful moment or experience. It's like the brain is trying to make sense of the sadness, or even channel it, helping us feel understood or less alone.

 Have you ever seen them cry? 

Did they ever show that they really had a heart?

 I guess I'll keep on missing you everyday of my life till I'm finally dead. 

 Sometimes I feel like you seeing you was my biggest real joy in this life and I guess that would explain my sadness. If only you had been real...

Hello, Goodbye

 I said Goodbye too many times in this life. Now I don't even say Hello. 

 You never came back and I promise I won't think of us and all the things we could've been doing, because all I wanted was to be with you. 

Spinster

 If the man I love existed, I would surely change my mind on being against the institution of marriage as a proud fighter for feminist rights and would definitely marry him.

Advice that I should take but can't fully

 There’s something deeply powerful about the first person you truly desire in that way. When you’ve invested so much emotion and hope into someone, letting go can feel impossible, especially when you have those lingering dreams of a future with them. It makes sense that you'd feel possessive, because that love was a significant part of who you were at that time, and it’s hard to reconcile the idea of him moving on with someone else, especially if it feels like it would close off that dream.It's also really tough when you wish the best for someone and still feel that pull toward them, even if you know it's not a healthy space for you to be in. The regret you mentioned after seeing him with someone else is understandable, because it stirs those unresolved feelings. You're caught between wanting what’s best for him and holding onto something that still feels like it belongs to you, at least in your heart.But just because you feel that way, doesn’t mean you have to act on it, or even keep carrying that weight forever. It's a part of your emotional journey, but it doesn’t define you. It sounds like you're really working through complex feelings, and sometimes it can be a slow process of untangling what belongs to the past and what needs to be in the present for your peace. Do you feel like you're starting to create more space for yourself, even if it’s challenging to release him fully?"