If I wasn't the most bruised and traumatized person ever, could I love you and you me? I'll never know.

 I can't get you out of me

We were our air

Our blood and holy water

Loved each other with despair

Stretching branches of a tree

No need for us to sought her

We weren't anyone

Just two kids playing around

With no masks to wear us out

... and when I'm getting better, not hating myself for everything and defending myself from everything, I will feel more worthy of love, believe and value the love you give me and love you back without any need, that is if meanwhile you saw it all through me, understood it, still love me and don't give up on me being sane and healed to finally accept your embrace without breaking myself.

Foolish songs

Full of foolish songs

Even when I think

That love can't carry on

It doesn't let me sleep

Returning to my thought

Where in fact he never left

From this story he bought

That I was just another one

Who fell for him enchanted

When the truth is he irritates me

For I know too well he's terrible

Though we have this connection

That seems quite unbreakable

And lingering on more than we want

Through all these songs we sing

Always remembering each other.

Inflatable - Bush

 Let it slide overhead

When I believe in you my soul can rest
But as love that's really love can never fail
But fail it does
When we shine like the sun
You seem the only one my only friend

You're so pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
So pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
When you're faithful

I resigned from myself
Took a break as someone else
It's like we've come undone
But I've only just become inflatable for you

You're so pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
So pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
So pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
When you're faithful

I don't mind most of the time
But you push me so far inside

You're so pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
So pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
So pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
So pretty in white pretty when you're faithful
When you're faithful
When you're faithful

Forsaken

 Why did you forsaken me so easily?
Torn apart, shredded mind and broken body,
I have no more heart and my soul is fucked,
I am the man that lost everything a long time ago
And still had to wander the Earth as an empty shell.

 Turns out I too have the astonished deer look sometimes. 

 Sometimes I wish I was the one you loved more than anything in this life, just like me to you.

 What's the point of talking about anything at all in this life?

Murky love

 How can you doubt my love 

Insult it and calling it murky

Isn't it clear and loud and too much

For you and the world to see?

Why do you insist in clouding it

Ignore it, despise it

God knows I did and regretted

Was punished right away

With floods out of nowhere

And bugs don't know from where

I've made much peace with it

Accepted that there is a universe

Trying to work out with something

I guess balancing energies out there

I don't know it too 

But it became too much to ignore

Such crazy things going on

Our waters aren't murky 

At least when we're connected

That much I feel it real flows

When it's just you and I

With no defenses or disguise

Dealing

 I wouldn't be able to tell you how much I love you and I think you are the only one who has that from me, the impossible, the unattainable, the unreachable, it's just a bloody Solaris nebula spreading through everything there ever was.

And it's that scary in daily coincidences too, even for a rational person like me. I'm tired and pretty willing to give up on everything and everyone, but it's this f*cking force that doesn't let me rest for freaking minute and sometimes I even hate it, because all I wanted was peace and you people existing and everything that happened wasn't in my plans whatsoever and I try do deal with it the best I can, but I always feel sometimes this waves of sadness, nervousness or even profound ache, sometimes, from you guys. 

Anyway, I'm really trying to fight it everyday and I'm determined. So I will eventually make it, also because you all don't give a f*ck about me, which is good like that for you not to suffer anything from me :)

 Maybe she needs him like water too.