I can't live in a world like this and without having conditions to make anything better and useful. So if the adrenal cortex pill I mean to try goes sideways I just hope my death won't hurt me much. 

 But true love like this lasts forever.

 I don't want to love you anymore.

 I'm in love with you

And I want you

Entirely for myself

A nightmare of life

 #canteatwhatiwant #cantlovewhoiwant #cantsleepwhenineed #donthaveahome #donthaveawc #donthavelove #donthavefamily #donthavesupport #donthaveanything #donthavefriends #donthaveanyone #onlypainandviolence #iwishineverbeenborn #thousandtrauma 

People in general

 You shouldn't count on children or adults for anything at all.

 If you ever loved me you'll want me and no one else will do but me and you'll fight against even death to be with me always.

 The thing that hurt me more was you going away and never caring anymore to know how I am, just abandoned me like everyone else who left me while I'm sick and suffering so much. And I always let you go, because I think it would make you suffer to know I am unwell and you're never here. 

Despots don't raise themselves alone

 All my life I have been suffering from violence of a despotic person that I couldn't ever have the means to get myself rid of. 

Among all the aches, illnesses and all that it has caused me there is always this ever returning feeling of wanting to die because of it. 

Many times I thought I couldn't hang in anymore. All the racism, homophobia, amid the domestic violence, has made me feel that want so desperate, to cut my wrists or blow my brains with a shot, though I wouldn't do it for the lack of courage. So each time a maniac politician prone to genocide is in power you can imagine what it feels like for me. All my life I hated dictators. It only made me slowly rot, because they are always there and striving. And I hate them. 

 "No one is supposed to be with anyone"