Home

 I wish I had a home

Where I could feel loved

And safe

And where I could sleep 

And bathe

And eat 

With the basic conditions 

I wish that when Xmas

Would come

I could also be

In your loving arms

I think that's how 

A Home should be

 If you ever realise that you can't love anyone else more than you have loved me, come to me, it's okay, it's alright.

2018 on insta, escher birds drawing inspired

 - You have made me see how old I am 

and how much blood I've lost to you

and all the dreams that never got wings.

You made me remember every departure,

everytime goodbye was felt

and each time everyone flew away

never to return with the olive branch 

that proves there's land ahead to go.

You have been known to me since birth

and I know you're only here to my demise. 

1999 ; 2013 ; 2021

 Three times 

I felt my heart die

Breaking inside

To shatter me whole

Three men 

Children of the star

I only knew it late

The story is untold 

Three loves

I thought they were 

For the rest of my life

Now only pain subsides

 Why do we have so much sorrow? Why aren't we glad for our glory? Because it all ends. Nothing is possible to be truly mend.

 I send ppl away cuz they're better off without me that can't do much of anything of this world. yep. :/

My love

 Did I make you an irreparable hurt, my love?

Will you ever find enough solace 

To take away the pain

Will you find in you the understanding 

And greater love under all the wreckage

That I made?

Truth be said, my heart, my lovely,

I have walked belly flat on the concrete

Dragging everyday my guilt and sorrow

Will you still love me ever tomorrow?

Fear, Failure, Anxiety

 We're anxious and afraid only because we have our failed experiences in our memories, but if we remember all the good we did and bad that we overcame, imagine it all going well, we can compound the positive memories and counteract the fear and all. 

Guilt, hate, love

 we'll never forgive 4 all the pain and worse I did for no love to remain. it was better this way 4u 2be happy

we hate it each other and yet you're the one I love above everything.

"you're all I want"

 You should know I let him kiss me 

One kiss was all it took to haunt me

To increase my guilt towards you

For the first time I've let someone 

After ten years shunning everyone 

Kiss me

And yet it didn't cure me of you