vulnerability, my ass

 The truth is I had rather that they think I never really loved them, than them knowing I was crazy about them. 

another try on my insta bio, this is a keeper 😁

 Look in the mirror, see what you did badly, to me, you and others. Don't bother me.

 firstly and utmost I am an anti-fascism, since I was a kid.

 I feel like I have been holding up a mirror for so long, where I not only see myself as I also see others and open up this chance for them to look at it too, facing themselves for a change. 

(no one really likes what they see)

 I show up with love, ppl show up with agendas 🤷🏽🤦🏽😅

 I used to see the good in everyone, until everyone gave me their worse. Then I woke up. 

I'm always inside of her. I am the sea.

Disappointing (or not) as should

 You're gonna have a relationship with him, aren't you? I hope you can avoid breaking his heart, but I guess that him knowing the kind of man that you are also helps, he's just another one fascinated by you until. Good riddance, old chap. I'm sorry you have to go through everything even knowing that you are the one who will want it. It's all a rigged scheme and we don't even know it, we're just fckng puppets going around the same shitty cycles not noticing anything. 

I'm feeling a bit of an indirect shame, I think...

Also now I thought of how it might seem that I'm always being a cop to you, but believe me, I never wanted all of this feelings and sensations crossing me. I am the one who has been always invaded, since the first time that I didn't know you out of nowhere when she asked about your name. That's the truth. 

(and yet he broke it, the repetition of the story, but I don't know for sure)

 I hate them because I loved them. 

(don't you wanna get mad at me anymore? don't you love me?)

Rational

 I try to be rational even when things seem to have no certain and knowable explanation. Are we still in eachother? Well, I guess if I still think of you I am :/ I'm sorry. Again. 

Once upon a time there was a virus and then a song to heal us a bit

 I am sad because I miss you. I've just remembered the song that I also tried to sing with you, kind of, when I was aware that you had caught that bloody virus. I got immediately triggered worrying about you because I knew you had bronchitis like me. Even though I already had the feeling you had someone with you - kind of reminded me of myself and my ex-boyfriend, when I got into hospital with a really bad case of food poisoning, by the third time or so that we were seeing eachother; so I thought that made sense for you to go through something alike. 

That was the kind of tenderness that I thought our infinite love was about. 

One day, you'll do like him and suddenly surprise me, putting your head on my lap for you to be caressed in your head. I wonder if you'll mind me spoiling your curls a bit? ☺️🤗

God, I really miss you.