Circumstance

 never forget you're all alone, always have been and even more sick and cursed

just keep distance from everyone who hurt you even more all the time, giving you stress and ruining your life and never ever realised they had good things in theirs only because you made it so they would 

no one knows anything, never will, it's all good, I'm just too sick right now and also nothing helps, like discovering that jesus wasn't a real person after all and just another adaptation of religious copycats for centuries (of Mithra in this case, of all characters 🤦🏽), what a shame and a sadness, also D. Lynch died and the "weather report playlist" someone compiled of his suggestions is the best thing that happened at least these days that I'm so ill 🤧