look deep within yourself first, be fair, humble, truthful; be loving.

Be happy you two

 Did you finally discover how to always be happy regardless? Or are you just being irresponsibly light and airy again? She's just a little young girl with so many dreams inside and filled with the impulse of life. She's naive to you. You'll just damage her like you always do. I wish you didn't but then again it will show me that I was wrong and you can actually stop being false to yourself and others, just irresponsible at thinking you can do anything you want to. You are so happy, that I am not going to even be saying anything more here. But I hope she will be the one to everything ignore afterwards and carry on. 

I have loved you two so much and with so much care, you'll never have the slightest clue. 

The lessons learned now

 1- I'm the one who makes it special just by being how I am

2- ppl don't like deep conversations 

3- everyone's running from stuff

4- I got emotionally attached to a couple of people in this life, but not anymore 🙌🏽

5- you can only truly count on yourself and if you ask someone for help and they help you it will only be once or twice, even if you're there for that person always 

6- they only care for who they want and they care, especially after you're no longer a novelty 

7- I could've died while they've ignored me and they didn't even care, so one shouldn't really care for any of them or suffer on their account, because they're the worst ppl you came across in your life

8- no one is truly open as you are 

9- turns out humans aren't that humanely in their character traits 

 living locked up in my room mostly heartbroken and sick, plus still trying not to miss everyone who abandoned me and treated me poorly, sometimes suck a lot, but most of times I see it as an irrefutable fact and that's fckng it. I wish I still had someone I could call best friend. I wish someone would be my home. But as it's all been impossible I'll just have to keep enduring the living daily hell, waiting for some eventful miracle. like watching the sky, being able to breathe, feeling some serenity that I hadn't in so long. I miss it. I miss especially having the feeling, rare, of "ok, this was worthy of being alive for".

 waiting for the noblest of hearts while trying to be one

faced it all; know thyself and change for the best 

It's revolution, baby

 Burn it all down 

Right down to the ground 

Let it be obliterated 

The pedophiles of this world

The gangsters in control 

Send them all to hell

Because they put us here

Dealing with all this misery

So just burn it all down

And make everything better

(end waste, overproduction and overconsumption; distribute intelligently;  end violence and everything war related; attribute functions to every citizen to a part of a whole and be fulfilled; make all the good dreams come true for everyone)

Utopias were made to be achieved one day

. What would a society of genuine abundance need?

I would separate the goal into five conditions.

1. Material security

Everyone has enough nutritious food, appropriate clothing, clean water, energy and a safe home. These should be guarantees, not rewards reserved for the economically successful.

2. Universal essential services

Healthcare, education, disability support and basic social protection are available to everyone, including those who cannot work.

3. Limits on extreme inequality

People can earn different incomes, but nobody should have such concentrated economic power that they can effectively control other people's lives or political institutions.

4. Democratic control and accountability

People have a genuine voice in decisions that affect their work and lives. Public institutions must remain accountable, rather than becoming a new hierarchy of privileged officials.

5. Sustainable abundance

Society produces enough to meet human needs without destroying the environmental foundations on which that abundance depends.

I think the Nordic countries offer some practical evidence that several of these conditions can coexist with a market economy. Socialist and communist experiments, meanwhile, have shown different possibilities for public ownership and social provision, alongside serious problems of economic coordination, political accountability or material scarcity.

Neither tradition has supplied a perfect, complete answer.

Has humanity built a society where everyone has enough, extreme inequality is absent, and people can live with dignity without constantly fearing poverty? Not yet.

Have we built societies where a much larger proportion of people can live securely because essential resources and services are treated as collective responsibilities? Yes, to a significant extent.

A society's wealth should be judged not only by what its richest citizens can afford, but by what its poorest citizens are guaranteed. 

A country can have billionaires, impressive skyscrapers and spectacular GDP growth while people go hungry. Another can be less spectacular economically but ensure that a person who becomes ill, loses a job or is born into a poor family still has a reasonable chance of living a dignified life.

The second society has achieved something profoundly important, even if it hasn't solved everything.

And perhaps the most useful political question is not whether capitalism or communism wins an argument in the abstract. It's which institutions actually allow ordinary people to live freely, securely and with dignity and how those institutions can be improved without sacrificing democracy.

I try so hard to make it all

 Young at heart

Wild at mind

Nihilistic at soul

I think I'm old

We're made of empty matter 

Trying to connect 

And even merge

But we're doomed 

To be to eachother repellent 

I did cause much of it

No one really masters 100%

That whole co-creation myth

It's just me when I vent

What can I really do

I don't know 

Maybe I'm too damn tired

To even push for a goal 

Why can it be ready-made 

Perfectly ticking all needs

I wish somehow there was a miracle 

That makes me dwelve only in bliss

 Maybe I broke everyone's heart

because first they've broken mine

wasn't it?

All of them more than twice

Remember when we rolled the dice

And fortune told nothing clear

Just something vague for your ears

And now and then, till the very end

I will pretend I'm done waiting for you

To realise how you weren't my friend 

You say you were part of my past

And I have to stay to see the future 

But truth is you gave up the game

And I wasn't playing, I was truer

Keep smiling

 When he smiles to me

Almost like telling me why

Making sure I get relied

Something magic appears 

It's like he thinks all of me

Is fair and wise and kind

The dozens of times he says

I'm special and unique

He's half dragonian half foxy

He's half young Pharaoh 

And half boy of the barrel 

And he's an everlasting force

That keeps shining in my heart