Wednesday, 26 October 2022

Love of my life

 Lately I have been asking the heavens for you to tell me that you love me... and I guess you kind of did, but not exactly to me. 

Anyway, you already know I have and will always love you and be there for you taking care as I can. 

Love of my life, no matter.

Sunday, 23 October 2022

Friday, 21 October 2022

 If you only knew how I suffered just to make it all so that you would be happy...

Thursday, 20 October 2022

Wednesday, 19 October 2022

The state of the world

 It makes me cry when I think of the state of the world.

I've never been in love before - Frank Loesser - Chet Baker - Laufey

 I've never been in love before

Now all at once it's youIt's you for evermoreI've never been in love beforeI thought my heart was safeI thought I knew the scoreBut this is wineIt's all too strange and strongI'm full of foolish songAnd out my song must pourSo please forgiveThis helpless haze I'm inI've really never beenIn love before
But this is wineIt's all too strange and strongI'm full of foolish songAnd out my song must pourSo please forgiveThis helpless haze I'm inI've really never beenIn love before

Thursday, 13 October 2022

 I can't live in a world like this and without having conditions to make anything better and useful. So if the adrenal cortex pill I mean to try goes sideways I just hope my death won't hurt me much. 

 But true love like this lasts forever.

Monday, 10 October 2022

Sunday, 9 October 2022

A nightmare of life

 #canteatwhatiwant #cantlovewhoiwant #cantsleepwhenineed #donthaveahome #donthaveawc #donthavelove #donthavefamily #donthavesupport #donthaveanything #donthavefriends #donthaveanyone #onlypainandviolence #iwishineverbeenborn #thousandtrauma 

Saturday, 8 October 2022

Wednesday, 5 October 2022

 If you ever loved me you'll want me and no one else will do but me and you'll fight against even death to be with me always.

Tuesday, 4 October 2022

 The thing that hurt me more was you going away and never caring anymore to know how I am, just abandoned me like everyone else who left me while I'm sick and suffering so much. And I always let you go, because I think it would make you suffer to know I am unwell and you're never here. 

Monday, 3 October 2022

Despots don't raise themselves alone

 All my life I have been suffering from violence of a despotic person that I couldn't ever have the means to get myself rid of. 

Among all the aches, illnesses and all that it has caused me there is always this ever returning feeling of wanting to die because of it. 

Many times I thought I couldn't hang in anymore. All the racism, homophobia, amid the domestic violence, has made me feel that want so desperate, to cut my wrists or blow my brains with a shot, though I wouldn't do it for the lack of courage. So each time a maniac politician prone to genocide is in power you can imagine what it feels like for me. All my life I hated dictators. It only made me slowly rot, because they are always there and striving. And I hate them. 

Saturday, 1 October 2022