Sunday, 27 June 2021

 (accompanied by selfportrait on Instagram) "bewitched, bothered and bewildered", maybe I'm baffled by the way you invasively decoded me too in this historic romance type and maybe I'm amazed how everyone of yours came surrounding and questioning me and the feeling grew into limitless and the belonging on the chest feels like siamese and silence and even in absence and distance the most precious understanding and bond... yeah, f*cking crazy but that is it pretty much.

Monday, 21 June 2021

Come Away With Me - Norah Jones

 Come away with me in the night

Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

(brought tears to my eyes right now)

Sad Clown

 For the first time I have hurt someone so much
and I'm the one who's feeling distrust
like everybody's having a laugh at my expense
like I'm some crazy character that showed up
just to entertain everyone else

I wish I had really found true hearted people
who were open for love and its glory
and not being bullied all the time

But returning to mankind has proved to be awful again
because people are so afraid and not truthful and open

I know everyone's supposed to be on different stages
and some never even pass through stages at all
and I know I'm the breaker of it all
the one who comes and plants a mirror right on their faces

I wish I hadn't listened when someone told me 
that it's good to come back to mankind
I mean, after years of being in reflection 
didn't I remember everything I've learned?

Why did I think it was okay to go with the flow?
Now I've just been feeling so sad 
for having absorbed everyone's feelings too
and my heart feels a bit broken as well.

Thursday, 17 June 2021

My heart bleeds for you, I'm sorry for what I felt I had to do

 Making someone hate you just so there is no chance that she'll love you, because it's impossible and painful for all my lack of conditions, has definitely been the hardest thing I did, especially when we love the person.