Him by Moonlight *

 The vanilla skies that Autumn brings
Where a starling flock flies and sings
Their murmuration drawings dancing at the sky
High on sunshine
The score of an epic film
That's him by moonlight
And not a dream
He's everything and more that I adore

*alternative lyrics to Stella by Starlight <3

 To feel worthy of love finally, when will that happen? 

Sometimes I wish...

 ... I had a true love inside my heart, completely and utterly honest and complete,
but then I remember I had one and with the years everything changes and ends,
so it's just always a matter of time and therefore it's no use to break the heart again.

Do you know?

 The truth is I love you more than life itself. 

You don't

 You don't speak to me
You don't see me
You don't listen to me
You don't say you miss me
You don't hear me 
You don't do anything for me
You don't love me
Do you?

 To know that you feel for me as I feel for you
so 
so
so
must be enough

 Everything hurts. On the brink of dying.
All I wanted was you to forgive me.

I wish I could feel something, but I don't feel anything.
Just a broken heart because I thought you were my friend.

 I wonder if you ever even care or worry about me, or is it just a despair or a nuisance just to think about...

What will be of us?

Through pandemic years
And war times with nuclear menaces
Despotic leaders elected by blind masses
Peoples against peoples

What will be of us,
two lovers condemned by life?

 Never give up, goddamit, cuz there can be some medical or whatever substance breakthrough, even if it takes f*cking decades and you're already a f*cking fossil.