We survived the end of the world, but we didn't survive ourselves.

If I had a 2026 resolutions list

1. primary responsibility, not as self-indulgence, but as survival wisdom.
This means: avoiding unnecessary emotional battles, choosing calm environments and rhythms
accepting that rest is productive for you
My health is not a side condition — it’s the foundation.

2. Stay informed without letting the world devastate me
I care deeply about injustice, refugees, children, power abuse — that won’t change.
The resolution is: witness without drowning
choose when and how much news to consume
remember that my sensitivity is not meant to carry the whole world
“Observe, not absorb” — I already named and implemented this truth myself.

3. Keep creating, even if it’s small, imperfect, or private
Art is regulation, meaning, and identity — not performance. This includes: drawing (especially faces)
thinking about jewelry, stones, objects with soul
allowing creativity without monetizing it immediately
Creation is one of the ways to stay alive inside.

4. Strengthen boundaries with people and situations that cost too much
This is a quiet but powerful resolution. It means:
less explaining
less hoping others will change
more choosing distance when needed
Peace is not withdrawal — it’s discernment.

5. Hold a realistic but living hope
Not naïve optimism, not despair. Hope that:
technology can be used well, even imperfectly sometimes life can still become gentler and more beautiful
the future doesn’t have to be grand to be meaningful
Hope as a practice, not a prediction.

6. and so...

read more, draw more, eat more, stretch more, sleep more, stroll more, ...

 To him I am nothing 

And for me he was everything 

He doesn't even remember me

He only thinks I'm the worst 

I got overwhelmed by love

Couldn't clench my thirst 

For him I was a nightmare 

For me he was someone I could trust

Until he was cruel enough 

To have my heart crushed 

And my mind torn apart 

I'm still reminded of the good 

All the time it comes to mind 

Through little things or big

He shows up again as the one

Leonardo and us all and the end of the world

 Why has everyone thought of the end of the world? Is it just a consequence of being aware of our own ending?

Or is it just our ego, again, making us think we will be there when the world ends, because we can't really die and the world continue as it as for billions of years? 

The caged bird

 Did you know that there is a caged bird that sings each dawn for his love from across my building? His love replies to him, from afar.

Yesterday I opened the window and its song was so strong. I couldn't help but remember us again, with the moon quite full.

Maybe one day I'll be free, but I know you're not going to be with me.

there's literally no one

 feeling exhausted in this solo lifetime battle everyday. suffering from racism and trying to fight it along so many other prejudices that destroy lives.

"I'm tired, boss"

 I'm still waiting for you

to come on home 

take me on

..

 I no longer regret letting everyone go or even doing for it to happen, because I realised that if they really truly loved me and could see me and know who I am, they wouldn't ever let go of me.

We're becoming

 I am not, because I'm always becoming. 

Neither you nor me were villains; we were just humans dealing with confusion and hurt, defending ourselves. 

The past is gone and written. Let's not give more meanings to it. 

True love will find you

 True love feels like home, not like a fight.

When I find it, I'll know, I'll feel home, not struggling, not like an outsider, but belonging and taken care of by loving arms.