heartbreak again incoming probably...

 Sometimes it seems so crazy to me all these feelings and sensations that I get once in a while, seemingly popping out of nowhere, though it's just accumulation of little signs now, I guess, and I hate it. Just a few moments ago I was seeing some song video that showed up on my feed about a guy who made that song because the guy that he loved sent him a message inviting for his wedding and I shared on my stories saying that "yeah, one of the most awful things one has to go through in life is knowing that the love of our lives is going to marry someone else. 

Now this afflicted sensation and I have to say to you "please, don't get married", I can't stand this all over again, not with you, I need you to be with me and not get married to someone else. But I guess that's what you will eventually do and knowing myself and how I dealt in the past with a similar situation, though last time I couldn't shake it off even afterwards when pretty much was gone, I think in decades I would with you because I always had the feeling you were supposed to go through all that to get to the point of our souls and our whole selves being ready to finally be with each other forever. BUT WHYYY, WHYYY, WHYYY has it all to be so difficult and impossible? You didn't even like me, that's the only truth. 

💔💔💔💔😭😭😭🖤🤍

 I just wish I could have seen him. 

Vice

 In all my life I have never had a vice, but only one in a couple of years being addicted to someone I love. And it destroyed much of me too. 

(he was the one I love, he's not a vice, he's only faraway and as I couldn't get to go to see him I took every chance I could to see him from afar and the rest of the people I love and I'll never be able to hang out with)

 am nothing, got nothing (probably got complex PTSD), but my writings.

Glitter

Glitter is one of those things that seems harmless at first, but it's actually a huge environmental problem. It's made from plastic, and when it's washed off, it often ends up in the ocean, contributing to microplastic pollution. It's frustrating because people might not realize the impact of small actions like that, but if more people were informed, maybe we could see a shift toward using biodegradable alternatives or completely avoiding it. It's one of those things where if the awareness grows, it could make a big difference.

I worried, because I knew their struggles.

 failed at everything, even in dying.

 I EXPRESS IT JUST TO TAKE IT AWAY AND MAKE IT DISAPPEAR 

I remember moments

 I remember times 

I remember dates

I remember periods 

I remember states

I remember people 

I remember rhymes

No, it's a lie

I'm a poet in disguise 

I remember everything 

That was important 

And unimportant 

By association 

So moments arise

Many times in my mind

I remember you all my life 

all I want, all I need

You are all I need 

 I am all you need 

and yet

we ourselves are

all we need 

two minds

two hearts 

in one soul