My last words to you

 I'm truly sorry for all the hurt that I caused you, for not having listened to you and not having been able to stop and not bother you anymore. 

I was so sick. I'm sorry. I've always cared for you and wished you well. I was so happy for you. You were the one I loved the most.

(And I'm really sorry that we never met and that he came first and instantaneously got infatuated with me and wanting to kiss me. I still can't wrap my head around everything l, it's all very crazy to me. Especially when I have been alone and isolated for years. I never wanted anything like this to happen. How it all became so much more messy for me. I just wanted simply that her wish had come true and that we had our beautiful ceremony on the gurus woods)