I shall not stay

 I shall not stay with this belly ache of emotional crisis

I shall not stay with this turmoil in the disappearing brain

I shall not stay with pain in my chest twisting me inside out

I shall not stay in this constant remembrance of you 

I shall not stay with this feeling of uselessness of not being able to save you

I shall not stay with this feeling that I can't rip away the pain out of you

I shall not stay with this overwhelmingness of the soul ripping my body

I shall not stay with this deep abyss sadness dwelling for losing you to life

I shall not stay

I shall not

I shall

(while listening to May as Well by Angel Olsen)