The realisation of the fact that I will be completely alone and helpless in this world is heartbreaking. 

Pain

 you only think about your pain

and never in all the pain you caused

with your manly man game

unlike myself that thought of yours

and tried to save you from it

when you only made me insane 

Falling in love

 The rain fell in love with the earth

The earth fell in love with the sea

The rivers fell in love with their margins 

The bees fell in love with the flowers

The skies fell in love with the stars

The sun fell in love with the moon

The clouds fell in love with the rain 

Our Love

 Our love does not exist because of some kind of sickness or neediness, but because we recognised something in each other, like our experiences and heart and scars, and held our hands tight and stood together in silent and in pain and laughter and even insane maintaining a reason , being a guiding light amidst all the emptiness and pandemic darkness.

Our Love was hope when all hope was gone, and strength when all there was was tears, moreover it was joy when all laughter was silenced, and it was life when everyone was dying. 

 When you put everything into a page it will always hurt someone.

A simple kind of life

 Learn the joy of an common life and you'll never be bored.

it's one of the worst things

 to feel like you have ruined your only chance in life and you have to keep living knowing that time doesn't go back.

 I like people who get excited seeing the wonders of nature. I wish I would meet more people like that.

How could you?

 How could you do me so much harm, hurt me so much on purpose, and never love me and care for me, as I always did for you? How can you not see the damage you made to all of us who loved you and cared for you? 

Sometimes I excuse you saying to myself that you can't love, that you were made like that, but I know you loved others and cared for others. All the time I felt guilty and thinking that it was because of me, I was neglecting the fact that you made me suffer from the start by neglecting and ignoring me. The likes of you make people kill themselves thinking they're worthless, just because you didn't give your kindness and love to them and instead made them go ill and crazy. 

pandemic grief

 there used to be a silent ache that united us all. now it's what separates us all.