You

 You're evil, you're smug, snobbish; thinking that you are better than everyone else. All the rest is just a masquerade that you were forced into, first by others, afterwards by yourself. Because god forbid that you're yourself truly, god forbid that you disappoint everyone and no one likes you anymore or wants anything to do with you. You only use people. God forbid that you stop playing your part, your role, the only thing you know how to. God, what the fck are you and have been all these years? What a fckng psychopath that can't stop even for a minute to think of the hideous things you've done and thought, because you would have to off yourself. You're a pathetic creature. Your perversions will have an end.