The loving feeling

 It comes in sweet caresses
that loving feeling
and tenderness and warmth
I miss it again like it was never there
the beautiful belonging in the hug
the completeness of the proximity
something that's enough
something that's everything
something that's the only truth.

 I'm the dying, condemned one; with no future or present or past, just woes and aches that accumulate till the final rest. 

Did I live or saw too much?

 I think I lived too much also through watching and observing others, and just absorbing everything. 

All the outcomes, all the endings and beginnings, all the in-betweens.

Everything seen and done, like all the thousands of movies that I watched before.

So don't worry, you'll be fine. Whatever you do. You''ll be just fine baby girl. Just enjoy your life for the while and don't worry about it too much, unless for what you need to become each day: better than you were the day before, more conscious, more resolved, no more going out there breaking people's hearts for fun you little teaser Th. ;)

May as Well - Angel Olsen

 It may as well have been forgotten

Or did it simply slip your mind?
Is that my heart that's splitting open?
I guess it just fell to the side

I've tried my best to keep you smiling love
Maybe it's been all in vain
But I would try a million times my dear
Tell me would you do the same?
One could say it's complicated love
Like nothing they've seen before
Or simply that it is a thought we share
Forever it must be ignored

If you really love me there's no way to tell
I'm always arriving when you say farewell
In all of my dreams we are husband and wife
I'll never forget you all of my life

I'll never forget you all of my life
I'll never forget you all of my life

Are you even aware of how much I miss you?

In your arms

 In those arms of yours there's the fine matter
from which is carved comfort
that thin mist of caress
that warms in the middle of loneliness

In these arms of mine I have peace
where you can rest from the tiredness
that lasso that weighs in your body and soul
when you can't go slow.

 I wonder if our therapists tell us the same...

And we go out there and do it all again...

How do you forgive yourself for being an idiotic fool?

You go to the root of the happening.
You think of what factors may have led to its realization. 
You acknowledge that none of them were in your control, even if they could have been in other circumstances.
And you realize you don't have anything to forgive yourself about, because you have done nothing willingly. 

Note: Make sure you bring to consciousness that it wasn't really your will for anything to happen or to do anything as it went. 

To Love is simple (?)

  

When you love someone, you just do,
give your feeling to the person
make sure she feels it everyday
care for her and make sure she is okay

When you love someone, it's simple,
but maybe that person won't let us know
that we're loved and cared for 
or maybe as she doesn't want your love
it might become intrusive for her

Or even if one gets too much attached
or needy, or even just possessive,
then everything goes sour
and Love isn't simple no more...

 And you can't even care about me ...