Note to Self!!

 Never again let yourself go with the flow, letting hundreds of people follow you out of nothing, help them all, destroy your own health to help others and all that because you just wanted to help and thought you could keep on giving what everyone needed. 

Just remember who you are and your limits. You're not meant to save everyone, and even if you were, you can't do it anymore, you must stop and return to your isolation. In the end it is who you will always be: a solitude being without anyone who can truly love you and be with you. Because you're ruined for life. Just keep on waiting for death, in quietness. DON'T FORGET TO NOT FALL AGAIN FOR HUMANITY. They're not even deserveful, they're mainly egotistical and consummering. You should learn the lesson once and for all and not forget it again, goddammit!

And also pardon yourself for all that, because you weren't fully aware of what was happening and proportions that it took. And also make peace with the fact that no one loves you for who you truly are also because you're never really anything yourself, you're just what people need you to be in the moment.