What I did wrong

 Tell me what I did wrong 

So I can name it 

And move along:

I suffocated you

Persecuted you

Pressured you

Chased you

Criticized you

I insisted non-stop

I blamed you

I told you to go

I told you everything 

Like I were to know 

I did tempt your jealousy 

And your rage and hatred

I did it on purpose 

I went kamikaze on you

I put all the weight in you

I trusted you with my survival 

I didn't listen to you first

I did not stop when I knew best

I was sick in the head

Making narratives and wild guesses

To everything that was next

And carried on because it was on

Though I should have known 

That it was just all coincidence 

Just one sided connection 

Through it all