As simple as that...

 Oh gosh, I see your face talking in what seems a chilled way and I - besides resting my head on my hand and smiling - I start cursing, saying things like "fucking hell, goddammit, I'm really in love with him, it's really true, fuckin' hell, how the fuck this whole thing happened, I can't believe this is happening, he really exists too. Oh man, I still can't understand, but I'm so freaking doomed". Yeah, pretty much, fuck! 

(Never wrote or said so many f words lol)