Welcome to my hell

 What are we to do with being alone
for all our lives
for how long will we have to disguise?

The worst thing that could happen
was to love you this much
or wasn't?

This feeling of being all alone in the world
with no one who gets you truly
and loves you for all you are
and is there for and giving you care,
will it ever leave?

Having to be the target of others' problems
has left with this will to not exist 
my whole life.

I just wish I could rest and have you by my side.